im nt gonna run 400m competitively again man. mon spe was 4 x 400. i sprinted for 200m then some lactic acid suddenly caught my legs then i start to slack already. n on top of tt, can see fabian just chionging all the way, abt 50m in front. but lucky i was second for the first runner grp.. then pass to waika, who pass to ws who pass to darren. end up we 3rd. sian la. eventally, 6th out of 16 only. might as well go jump. hmmm the only thing s01 got abit of hope in is 12 x 100. tt is if pat n tk join la. argh. must go force them already. trg was siao man. do some yellow sticks. from far it looks easy but actually it takes damn alot of power to clear 6 x 3 yellow sticks at one go. then after tt did a few 150s.. leroy always last minute burst. shit man must go learn how to. bubble tea as usual ended abt 8plus.

i realize wad cca should really be... part of it is the core reason... to train, but another part is the social part. now almost after every trg we'll go bubble tea n i'll end up laughing my whole stomach out. i dunno wad life'll be like if i didnt get to know this grp of frens man. my life'll be like everyday after sch go trg, after trg go home. hahaha

tues in sch during the breaks s01 play dodgeball in interact rm again... but i dun think i wanna play again... or else i'll be sinning to the max... cuz happen my ball is one of the fastest (actually one of the hardest, but i wanna make it sound less bad), so i alot of times tio ppl until quite pain... then today my "target" was eugene... sry ar eugene if u read this... din expect my ball to actually cause ur teeth to cut ur lip... paiseh.. so, im nt gonna play it again. but it was fun lah :)

after sch go kfc eat... then i went back to have a 'chitchat' with pikachew. he eventually let me take maths s, but he say everyone must work hard, so i must work harder than hard. some positive feedback know. so, i'll be taking 2 asses. haha wad a way to put it across.

i learnt tt there's bad blood between two of my gd frens X n Y... and tt spells disaster actually. to analogize this feeling... when parents see red of each other, the child suffers cuz he doesnt know wad to do. so whenever X or Y lick flames abt each other when im nearby i just shut my trap. im not in the mood to take sides, nor do i have the authority to take sides, nor am i better frens with X or Y to take sides, nor m i anything. i did try explaining X's intentions; n by some unknown sequence X now sees me as not standing up for her... haiz. wonder wad would've happened if i tried to explicitly make peace. maybe i'd have lost an eye by now.

WHERE IS THE LOVE PPL?? humility, not hostility... i'd rather they just go the guys' way. fight, whack, get blueblack, then forgive n then forget.

hmmm today nth much except tt we pon bio lect to dodge some ball again... hahhaa seems like we're addicted to the game... its damn fun man juz take the ball n throw it hard at ur opponent n see them try to dodge, dip, duck, dive and dodge... then if hit ah... song bo! hahah aim anywhere as long as hit can already. sad la by nxt wk no more interact rm already cannot whack dodgeball.

after tt track quite hiong did 200m sprints 3 times. shit la must go queensway see spikes already. no spikes cannot sprint. after tt go play high jump. but the high jump abit the not high. cuz coach pat zender put the line like dunno how low... david step over also can.

then trg end ard 6plus then we wait for some ppl to bathe then go bubble tea... andrew khairul cherie zeng hui earnest n me, we drink n eat n talk shit there until like 8plus hahhaa damn funny they kan cheong abt tmls comp... n found out tt khairul actually had more childhood than any of us hahahhahaa!! met the tennis ppl there too.

so reach home like 9plus. n i got quite some shit to do. hahaha wah im starting to feel im having as much fun with track ppl as s01 ppl... ok bye

Monday back to sch. Sian. anyway spe we got 12 x 100m 1st... haha damn taiko. malcolm was neck to neck with tt guy in the last 100m. Wheeeee

Training damn slack but gym damn tired lah. Just sprint 3 x 100m then go gym... But in the gym... WOAH. must do the thigh thing 120kg 3 x 15 times with sit ups after each. mad know. i just did 15 then 20. After trg me andrew cherie crystal and max go bubble tea. hahaha damn fun, everyone scaring crystal abt going home. she damn loud la... dunno whether she got freak out on the way home anot hahaha

tues... in sch nothing much except tt i got 22/60 for physics test. Shit man i still blogging summore instead of studying. bttr buck up bryan. Damn you. Haha ok im going mad. watched March Of The Penguins......... in chinese. Like WTH man... Sounded damn lame la. But the video part was damn good. dunno how they film one.

Then at the ring of the bell got a lecture coming in so stop halfway. anyway i had to go also. Went down to canteen to meet andrew and cherie then we went to cs sakae. on the bus andrew was totally making some retarded animal-cum-alien noises under the seat hahahaha im surprised the driver didnt come upstairs to check things out la. o ya n cherie said she could see spirits and white orbs of lights... im fascinated abt this kinda stuff la but er abit hard to believe cuz first time i come across someone liddat (other than some epileptic guy frm my sec sch class). dunno whether really anot but she 'kindly' offered to arrange appointments hahah thanks i rather just accept it...

Hahaha ok today was fun man. but i really must go and study already. tml also got time trials. Argh shit man.

Wed was trials. 12.5s 100m. i think that sucks. Shit la... and spikes feel oh-so-good when sprinting man.

DODGEBALL! Hahaha every thurs is fun cuz there are 4 free periods + 1 recess. the whole four free periods we S01 guys (minus PRSS-ians, waika, eric, dickson, giant) played dodgeball (small plastic ones nt the big rubber one) in the interact room (quite apt ah). Haha maybe cuz its violent but nt pain tts y its fun...
and mr chew told me i didn't make the cut for maths s but he was willing to give me a chance... let me decide... So, ive decided. IM JUST GONNA GIVE IT A WHACK. Got chance better than no chance. So... yeah.

woke up at 1245. ok 1 o' clock, yeah but i just wanted to make it sound earlier. anyway i came down to eat lunch, then immediately faster go do bio spa skill a on pda cuz marcus using the com. then a few hours later, marcus laptop came. some getting ready for poly sia. anyway gd for me... now no need to haggle-computer-time. the coms almost mine hahaha!! dads a HOD so he's got one; sis' in uni so she has one; now marcus's going poly so he's got one too. mum? she hardly uses the com at home though she spends almost all her working time in front of a com.

So at last handed in my bio... i think its overdue but nvm. shit la hols coming to an end. i almost had no hols at all. Oh no just remembered still got maths hw. shit man sian. ok bye.

some birthday

happy bday to me -

today went out pooling in the afternoon at cine k-pool... sounds like singapore. cine k-pool, cinekepul, sinkepu, singapore. anyway nette was erm... hahha abit the curvy stick ah! hahaha anyway after that at orchard mrt station, on the way to meet dad mum n bro, some lady came up to me n introduced herself (joyce) n asked me for my name. then she said her company was looking for people to do MODELLING! hahaha totally wow man. then she asked n wrote down my number n name n said maybe they'll contact me later. hahha but later at night sis told me over msn tt alot of these were con-companies... hahahaha but the implied compliment was a nice birthday present for me!

anyway after tt dad mum n marcus came then we went to raffles town club to have penang buffet. it was simply finger-licking, mouth-watering, lip-smacking scrumptious man. hahah for me lah. all the peranakan stuff. squids in some thai-like gravy, dunno wad animals' knuckles, and alot of other sumptuous stuff lah. Woohoo! what a day for me.

actually i dun really want to age another year. i dun want to be able to drink, smoke, wadever. I'd rather i stopped at 15 or 16. gosh i can actually still remember my primary 1 years la. wad i brought to school to eat for recess. some longish yellow biscuit. wow and 10 years have actually passed so fast. i dun want to age any more than 18. 18 sounds too old. Way too old.

morning had track trg; did power training. must jump over 6 ~1m 'hurdles' then sprint abt 10m n back, then repeat another 2 times then take timing. 52 secs. can jump down. after doing 2 sets i cannot take it then rest. after that did 250m sprint twice. mr yazid told me to do 200m on sports day. confirm die one man! see all those chiongsters andrew, khairul, gene, blah blah n the soccer guys too. confirm 1st or 2nd heat out already.

after that went lunch at tm with zeng hui, hairianto, crystal and earnest. take abit the long time to decide, then after deciding on bk, go bk sit down. then realized quite crowded then stand back up. hahaha might as well dun go in the first place. then decided to go long john silver so we went to the lvl 4 one. then still! must wait. wait wait wait for some indian family to finish eating. they take damn long la we finish eating just minutes after they finished. telling me they nibble their food. thanks know.

so afternoon went back to sch for patrick zenders' training. can say it was quite fun :) but dunno y nv do the meditation thingy. anyway thats all. margaret thatsall.

slp

slp stands not for sleep. its Service Learning Project. yeah mon n tues all kena taken up by slp. go to some centre for exceptional children to paint their walls. summore is those lizrd-proof, super-duper unsmooth walls know. thanks alot. damn hard to paint. n hmmm... the designs... ok la considering its for WALLS of a centre for EXCEPTIONAL children. but in my opinion arh... hope no one's offended by this, n i hope many ppl also agree with me, but... the wall designs r super childish and... not very nice. actually i dun like the design i came up with. if it was mural painting confirm fail. but had quite a fun time la. SLP... PW... dunno wad other shits the moe can come up with.

J2

j2's damn stress la. very difficult to cope. esp for someone who luckily got 2 s papers with 4 A subjects. just suddenly feel like blogging abt it. feels like my heads gonna split. Just the life of a singaporean jc student. its boring, really. n i remember my dream last night.

i was just like i am, a boy, playing outside my house... but one thing: all i had to do was step on a piece of paper n try to slide across the ground... n when i concentrated hard enough, i could imagine myself to use the paper to move without stopping. soon i was able to move damn fast; cuz the speed just wouldnt decrease... i was soon whizzing through tpjc... past the foyer... suddenly it was a blur n i was skimming the waters of singapore, skirting some hotel or building i forgot... i was able to skate on the surface of the water! i assure u i was feeling the happiest n most relaxed then... then i went faster; n appeared in some eden-like garden with exotic plants, flowerbeds n weird never-seen before plants... then i was moving so fast tt i rose... then i realized i became a phoenix-swallow-hybrid sort of yellow bird, flying damn fast around in the sky... swooping, spiral-diving... the main thing i clearly remember, even now, is how happy n elated i felt during this dream. it was like i had nothing else to care about... juz flying around having fun. there was another bird, light blue, abt the same size, also in the air. the last scene was me n the other bird in the crimson sky... flying towards the setting/rising sun.

i wrote this down immediately after i woke up... dun wanna forget such a dream so soon. i had one such before... something to do with a light blue-glowing playground at the top of some hill or mountain. the feeling i felt was the same... damn damn damn damn damn happy. i think even if i get 6 distinctions also i won't feel such elation.

Thats what dreams r for, for me, bryan low. they help me cope with the prisonlike reality. this cannot do, that cannot do. in dreams, u can agree or disagree with anything, obey or defy anything. In the world that i just woke up from, Newton would have been slammed for coming up with his rubbish laws of motion.