getting a tad bored with school life without cca... its quite a sudden change- one moment there's track/sprints every 1, 3, 5... the next moment im going home right after school ends on mon wed n fri. then everytime i reach home walk thru the door, i'll see my spikes sitting on the floor itching to jump into action but cannot. when i find some time in the absence of books i'll relive the sprint days.

n finally i learnt to play a little piano... (proudly,) self-taught. at least i know how to play the intros of 100 years and Bad Day. on youtube there's this video showing the 'left' n 'right' of the piano piece for 100 years. i still don't know how to read scores. i just remember the keys by the keys n nothing else. bro found the score for bad day online n 'translated' ink to 'visual stimuli' for me... so now, im not piano illiterate but neither m i proficient. can say:

proficiency in tamil << proficiency in piano << proficiency in chinese

n now, to cap it all, i had a very demoralising small talk with ms wong today. she told me the situation n the riskiness n business n the whole issue of taking a second s paper, particularly maths s... when i told her i intended to stay in singapore, she gave tt look of obvious-ness: then why the hell are u still continuing with 2 s papers u bloody idiot?

i remember sometime ago i was considering whether or not to continue with maths s, and i said i'll just give it a WHACK... that decision was wrong. i've been wasting my time on a second s paper. staying back until 6plus every tues when i could've gone home by 130, plus its risky to pit myself against so many others taking the most common s paper, plus i dun even need nor want it. im dropping it pronto... dad already let me. so now my tuesday's abt 5 hours freeier. i'll decide whether or not to spend it in the library or at home- but definitely i'll devote it to academics. anyway i still thank mr chew for giving me a chance... but i never should have went for the qualifying test.

once upon a time i was packed to 6pm every single day of the week- mon wed fri was training, tues was maths s, thurs was phys s. Now im just left with thursday's 6 o clocks. a little hard to swallow, but i'll manage. bye maths s... i'll miss u, but i won't want u back... haha

s01 won the volleyball competition... gold. we didn't even expect to tide over A04 to enter the finals la. furthermore we didn't even want to win gold during the finals. not being bastard here, but we were really expecting ourselves to end up with the silver in our hands... it was nicer anyway... but somehow s20 made alot of unforced errors. we didn't win the gold; they lost the gold. so there. s01 rocks!

went to fish n co tt night for dinner aka (half the class) outing... our civics tutor seems more like our classmate than some of our classmates. n now i can confirm something: fish n co servings are bloody huge- for me la. i almost couldn't finish my food... practically stuffing it down towards the end. but its real worth the $10 plus spent on a meal man.


there was also the tpjc annual seasports carnival... although s01 didnt manage to win at least third, we still got 4th... we only lagged behind by abit- if only at the last moment everyone of us "errhhh" one time, then can win prize already... but anyway track won the inter-cca db race. Gold medal. haha altho i admit the outright win was due to the dynamics of boat 6, its already compensated for by the large lead. so means trackers still rule!

haha Bite My Water Molecules.

hmm i was thinking abt something... recently been getting quite a few intra-school trophies n medals- stamimania, vball n track db... consolation prizes? i dun want them if they are... maybe i got these prizes in place of tt big prize... the one tt i trained for. cuz thinking abt it, i almost didn't do anything to get these prizes. stamimania- pat could easily have taken my place, vball- i played what, 1 and 1/3 game in total, track db- i think its mostly owe to the throwers on board. so yeah... if u get my drift then ok. dun understand then nvm; that's normal.

ps. anyone knows where is the photo of the db trackers that tt teacher took?

It is, after a year, finally over. I joined track last year because of some reason that only I know (its not anything to do with the ppl in track). As I slowly went for trainings n bonded with trackers esp after jan this year, tt reason became a lost agenda (partly cuz it failed anyway). I started going for trainings regularly cuz the friends I made there became as close as, maybe even closer to me than my classmates.

After every training ended in the evening we'd hang around for so long at the track, then hang out even longer at the bubble tea shop. Maybe it's because we share such a similar attitude that make me feel closer to the trackers.

Then came June. every monday wed fri morning training... Seeing the bunch of fellow trackers more than my siblings... The sprints n the laughs... All tt s01, tiger, gamat n all tt crap... All tt can only be memories now. And eating was never so important before I joined track. Carbo-loading n thinking abt my weight... Now I think abt it, joining track was really entering a different world, a world of athletes where everything seemed so serious- spikes, diet n discipline...

Wednesday was the finals. How a year passed. N i was running the 4by1 finals. Last year I was there in the Victorian contingent, this year I went there as a tpjc finalist. I admit now: I was extremely scared n nervous before my race. i couldn't help realizing that that run was, in fact, our first n last run... we never had a trial run for me>fabian>gene>andrew. It was different for the 200. Tt was a race where I held only my race in my hands. For the 4by1, 4 teammates depended on me. I knew there was no room for error. So I tried my best n when the gun went I burst n ran my hardest. The only difference (i could feel it starkly) was my fear and nervousness were playing games with my rhythm. so my feet went slightly haywire. But I’m happy abt my pass to fabian- that had been the main subject of my nightmares. The pass was perfect. for me, tt run probably wasn't my best, but it was my best in that nervous-overdrive situation. Now after the race, I realize it was a silly thing to be so nervous. But I guess these things have to be trained by experience, which is something i'll learn from this yr's nationals.

It was definitely a memorable experience for me, to wear a jersey n run for a team in the finals. I'll never forget the emotional mountain I had inside me as I stood there behind the starting blocks, in front of a packed spectator stand. when I sat in the bus on the way back, looking out the window, I couldn't help but feel like I had been in a nice dream, a totally different world, a world of athletics. The world of Track and Field.

whoa. long time no blog
been thoroughly into track these few days... cuz it's the nationals. on tues had long jump in the morn then 200 in the afternoon... long jump i cleared 5.6 by? 2cm. 5.62. wah lao damn sian... n tt was the first jump. the second jump dunno y the run-up abit screw up, n the third jump i din clear 5.6.
200m was lousily planned lar. when the gun went i just whacked. i was second before we reached the 100m mark. then lactic just set in n the guy i overtook earlier overtook me back. shit lar. then after tt i watched my video- i dunno whether its the same with everyone- but i totally nv high knee at all. like running cross country lar...

sidetrack abit... tk's bday a few days ago. i think out of all the s01 bdays, his was the most "loud" one. hahah we sang happy bday to him twice cuz earlier during recess got one class sing happy bday to their friend, then we also sing lo. took quite alot of photos n videos plus some bastard photos to go along with...

haha ok nt really much but it portrays an element of- dunno wads the word, but his sitting close but not too close, looking over, trying to get involved in their discussion... HAHAHH jk lah im just bastarding him... sry malcolm, dun take offence. just mischief on zuwei's, eugene's, darren's n my part. doubt u'll even read this anyway. n those who r reading who r not malcolm, dun tell him... haha k cya

mon trg was damn demoralising. grandfather-clocked a 26 for 200m... might as well go jump off some building. but its also partly due to some heavy lunch la. got egg, char siew, some more meat, some more meat, n more a packet of instant noodles. shit man if on tt day i eat liddat can just pack my bag n go fly kite already

today was also damn demoralising. got back chem... i got a 43. shit shit shit. all because of stupid organic chem. i thought i had it in my head, but when the questions were shoved in front me it just all flew away. serious. i swear if i studied my organic chem properly can get a b one... i better start really cramming all the organic rxns into my head now... or else its never. "i better start". how many times have ppl made up their minds to start n end up finding themselves not even ready to start.

for me, its been countless times. but its gonna stop.
if those teachers are gonna look down on me, i'll show them.
if those smart asses look down on me, i'll join them.
if my mind is gonna let go of me, i'll hold on.
and if my parents wanna give up on me, i won't let them

organic chem. i better start.

anyway the nationals are here. looking at my competitors n the sch they come frm, n some familiar names, i know its virtually impossible to make it to top 4 (except maybe for relays). but all i'll do is try my best to run my best n clock personal best. that's what we're all there for right? run ur own race, i'll run mine

wed was basically slacking... partly cuz everyone was still in the post-exam mood. although we're not supposed to be.
Even mr lee was not in the mood for lessons...
*same hand gestures* "ok ah... now, common tests just finish ah... so.. must take a break and rest abit ah... now's the time to relax your brain..." then he let us watch BBC Weird Nature. for me it was damn nice... dunno y.

thurs i sinned. or rather we sinned. we ponned 2 periods of phys lect so tt we could have abt 6 breaks in a row... why? to play volleyball. cuz ws anyhow sign our class up for the volleyball comp. n put me as captain. wtf?! so, in a nutshell, i've sinned n let myself down.
Somebody give me a cilice belt.

and i dunno y i can feel myself running slower n slower... my legs becoming more difficult to lift up n put down quickly... on wed n fri the time trials damn disappointing... 12.5. i think i ate too much cuz i can feel my own weight restricting me. increase in consumption + decrease in excretion + decrease in egestion => increased body mass. Newton's 2nd law: F = ma ; a = F/m. so m increased, a decreased. summore combining relativity n inertia... my increased mass contribute largely to drag force.

conclusion: i must lose weight. i want to go for weight loss programme.
anybody knows how to lose weight (although i dun think the weight is due to body fat) or does anyone have slimming sanctuary's number?