the 9pm chinese show's quite nice - The Little Nyonya. Don't quite get the "Little", but anyway it's about the life of a nyonya (a Peranakan female) as the daughter of a second wife.

it's interesting to know that the culture of the time differs so greatly from the University Age i'm living out right now. this difference matters because I am actually Peranakan. both my dad's parents and my mum's mother are Peranakan. my mum's father is Chinese. as in really 中国人.

so my ancestry's estimatedly close to 75% Peranakan. the bulk of it coming from my dad's side.

i don't know how i ended up a chinese. haha u might think that's normal cuz the Peranakans in The Little Nyonya all speak chinese, but that's purely just because it's Channel 8. my dad said Peranakans speak hard Malay or Hokkien, esp the completely Peranakan family type portrayed in the show.

assuming the producers did their homework, i'm intrigued with how my ancestors actually ran the family like a company. second wives are inferior to the firsts. then what was the point of the second marriage if he never intended to "honour, love and protect" her... doesn't he realize the quality of equality? purporting power and emphasizing hierarchy when it clearly contributes to nothing but discord. i've had enough of this shit in the army. where people regard you by your shoulder rather than your eye.

ok i think i got carried away thinking of the army. anyway, this show really made me like my culture but hate the tradition. such a pity the closest i've come to Peranakan culture is a chat with my dad's half-sis.

marc dont say i irresponsible ah... just tt i read it abit late. i'm responsible, cuz i dont have crabs on my shoulders.
and this is not crap. there is meaning to everything.

1. What is your dream ambition?
- to ORD

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- TO ORD. my dream is coming true soon

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
- getting married when I get my pink ic

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
- Maju camp guardroom (viewed over the shoulder). cuz the first time i look back at the guardroom when i book out, is when i ORD

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
- Retarvert

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being blessed

7. Do you trust easily?
- i dunno, but i will ORD easily

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- then just detach

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- other ppl's ORD

10. What does your name mean?
- Bryan means saturated sodium chloride solution

11. Is being tagged fun?
- as fun as going to cookhouse to eat

12. How do you see yourself?
- tilt my head downwards. what a stupid question

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- the officers and DXOs signing my ORD clearance

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Recruit

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- i'd rather ORD

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
- i think nvm la.. i go buy Sea Monkeys

17.What’s better, to give or to receive?
- to give what i receive. then can save money for ORD

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- i would pick the non-simultaneous one

19. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- All my what?

20. What are you waiting for right now?
- the mess canteen to sell siew mai

ok time to tag ppl... the 8 ppl are - kuan yew, hsien loong, hsien yang, chok tong, chee hean, bow tan, kan seng n balaji. gambatte!

"On these magic shores children at play are forever beaching their coracles. We too have been there; we can still hear the sound of the surf, though we shall land no more."

there are some things I want to do before I die.
I want to:

wear a pair of seven-league boots and chase a falling star.

cross a river at the edge of the world, to work in a Japanese bathhouse for spirits and demons.

stay in a washitsu at the top of that bathhouse, overlooking nothing but the ocean and a small train travelling across the waters.

sit in a boat and row towards a huge yellow moon at 13 o' clock.

visit a limestone crystal playground at the top of Ayers Rock.

look down at my toes and see the ground miles away.

look back up and see a castle with a huge garden and oases.

follow a brown pomeranian along a drain and through a wall to a flashy night carnival with a huge Ferris wheel.

see a forest in all its greenery; and the night in all its sparkle.