a beetle i snapped my camera at when i was in greece.

somehow it felt weird to contemplate the day from a perspective similar to this kan cheong beetle's. to go about the day treading the waters of paranoia and scuttling the sands of time, silently hoping the clock would rush too, even though time was the commodity. i realized i can't gamble with time. well, that about summarizes today.

christmas is over. cool, cold december also ends with christmas. somehow christmas gives me a feeling unlike other festivals or holidays- not even the new year, chinese new year, or even my birthday. it has an uncanny dreamy, faraway connotation that comes with it.

jingled bells
jingled bells
jingled all the way
oh what fun it was to ride
through that happy christmas day

ureshii means happy. stop-lessly completed the 21.2k in a humble 2:20. but still honestly ureshii.

and for the second time in my life, my mind lost control of my body. i think it can only happen with running long-d, cuz the body pretty much repeats the same few movements over a heck of a long time. i swear i was in a hard daze in the last 3k. a dangerous but somewhat wonderful and mysterious(?!) feeling.

now that i've seen what 21.2k is like, it'll only be a matter of not time but courage, before i try the big 42. i think it really takes some serious training to complete it smoothly, if not nicely... so realizing the truth about myself from this time, i'm probably not someone who can devote much time- if any at all- to progressive training for marathons. my last 3k this time probably proved how barely i scraped through. so... i dunno. haha