maybe at the time of the 23rd January that just passed, i might have been excited about ORD. who wouldnt? a breaking of chains and acquisition of the liberty i lost for 2 years. but my exhilaration probably went in tune with everything else and eventually, i did not post the 3 big, bold japanese characters "owari"- which means end and incidentally sounds like ORD - that i had been planning on posting.

of course, now that i no longer need to long for ORD, it seems like a faraway bygone now. something small in my life that i'm past caring. right now, the 2 things that matter to me are a job, my TP test, and getting into hall. its 2 and not 3 because i just can't decide which was more important.

and because of this, i made a decision which i know not whether fruitful or rash. hard decisions come when you have to give up something so tangible and near, in order to reach for something only half as tangible. a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush, but i still chose the two.

i still have hope, though.